DO IT ANYWAY!!!!

WOW!! The last few weeks have been some tough ones. Most of you know that I lost my job almost three weeks ago. For those of you who didn't know that, please respect and remember that this blog is private and this information is private too. I really don't want every one to know. One of my biggest struggles through this trial has been knowing or believing that the people responsible for this enormous upset in my life will give it little or no thought, even though potentially they have really messed up my life. Potentially, I could loose my home and everything I have worked so hard for financially if I don't find employment. I have had some very long days and nights as I have struggled to deal with the hate and anger that I have felt. I know that I cannot continue to carry this burden and to let this ruin me. I know that I must rise above this, pick up my skirts, (reference to our dear pioneers) and move on. It was just a job. I still have my family, my friends, my integrity, and most of all my testimony and knowledge that the Lord loves me, knows me, guides me and His Hand is carefully guiding me and sustaining me through this, as He has done throughout all of my life. I will move on, find another job, and learn from this. But it is not easy, and I'm struggling:)

So many things have brought me comfort and help through this trial. Friends and family who have talked to me, listened to me, assured me of my worth, and even helped me laugh about it. The scriptures, prayer, a priesthood blessing, temple attendance, and church attendance has really boosted my spirit. And yesterday, I found the poem I have included below. It reminded me of why I live my life the way I do, why I give 110% to everything - even though it often goes unnoticed, why I try to treat others with respect and love, why I showed up every day to my job and gave more than was expected. The only thing that matters in this life, is that we do what would please our God. That is all I want to do with my life. Please God, serve God, love God, become like God.

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway. Mother Teresa